Vanishing Hitchhiker Phenomenon

I sat up last night wondering what would happen if I disappeared. How long before someone would notice? Two days? A week? It's difficult to say when you live alone. Certainly it would be my coworkers who'd first notice my absence. Is that a shame or a sigh of relief? A mixed bag, I gather.

It's just a wintry mood.

Doldrums, my friend.

I battle an unshakable case of highway hypnosis. The world is rushing past me, yet I am unaffected. Numb. I come to and wonder how I ended up here. Unmotivated. Unmoved. Certainly I was on my way to somewhere...

It seems I have company after all. The phantom hitchhiker is no urban legend. He is the melancholy that resides within me as I go through the motions of day-in day-out. He is the inevitable passenger. I am tired of his presence. I wish he would disappear already.

(I wrote this about a week ago and didn't get a chance to post it. It felt relevant enough for me to share it. I am counting on Dale, Punxsy Phil, and Mutha Nature to fulfill their promises!)

5 comments:

Bubz The Troll said...

I've been wondering if you'd disappeared since your last post. Strange coincidence.

There is a movie called Hitcher out right now.

stevie.be. said...

wow this was seriously deep and thought provoking... i have been dealing with these feelings lately and haven't been able to articulate it the way you just did... great writing.

Army said...

bubz, a strange coincidence indeed. I can happily report my disappearance is not so, yet I need spring to come along soon. I need to motor with the windows down and the music up. I need the sunshine after work. I even want the yard chores!!

stevie.be, welcome to my blog. I'm glad the post spoke to you... sometimes that's what it takes - sharing a perspective with someone else. Someone who catches your drift. I hope you will stop by again and offer up more comments!

Allie D. said...

Chris -- I'm so with you! I've been in a hell of a funk myself lately and it's everything I can do to keep up the daily routine. I wouldn't call it "depression" but it's defintitely a huge BLAH.

bennie said...

Well, I've been feeling pretty good lately.... so I don't know what everyone's problem is... :-P

It must be the winter blues..... which we don't get down here in H-town apparently. It was almost 80 today!